Bestfriend...

This is an open letter to a particular person that's part of my life... I know you'll know this is for you...

Whenever I think of you these days, I can't help but smile then frown, feel happy but also sad...

We've been friends for almost years now, almost half of our lives and we've been through quite a lot already. But lately, I know that you've been really sad, depressed even, and that made me really worried about you. It also made me think that I'm a lame friend for not being able to help you. And for this, please accept my apology.

I'M SORRY. I really am so sorry for not always being there at your side when you're lonely. I know I have to text and call you more often, and it's saddening that I sometimes only become aware of your sadness or your problems after you've already solved it. I know you're strong-willed and very confident, but at times, I really want to comfort you at the least.

I"M SORRY for breaking a promise to your dad. When your dad passed away, I whispered to him during the wake that I will take care and watch over you and your mom, in my own little way. I even reinstated that promise at his burial, while you're trying hard to fight back your tears and I can only watch from afar. I've visited the cemetery just once after that, and until now, have yet to return. Remember when I told you on one of our phone conversation that I want to visit again? - it's because of this promise. I want to apologize again to your dad, this time not onlythrough prayers, but going back to the place I made my promise, saying that I failed until now, but will not give up on you- I won't give up and I can't give up- on you.

I'M SORRY for the times that I failed miserably to be by your side when you badle needed someone to talk to, or to cry with. There are times, during our phone-ins, that when we talk about our problems and miseries in life, I just want to hold your hand, and even hug you, just to assure that eventually, things will fall into their places and you'll be happy again.

I'M SORRY for being insensitive sometimes, for talking instead of listening, for being stubborn, for being clueless. I don't know why I suddenly decided to write you, but the sudden thought of my incompetence as a friend struck me, and I just have to express it.

I hope that while you're reading this, you'll feel my sincerity and that by the end, you'll accept my apology. I know I'm being melodramatic and writing this letter is quite out of my comfort zone, but please believe in every single word. Going back twelve years, i still can't remember how we suddenly became friends. As you've said, we're like Yin and Yang. Though we have some similarities, w e have a lot more differences. But somehow, we clicked and been able to survive 12 years bullying each other. Ha! Who would have thought that we'll still be stuck with each other for more that a decade? Hehehe.

Now, as I've stated earlier, whenever I think of you these days, I can't help but smile and frown, be happy and sad at the same time. Happy and smiling, knowing that I'm lucky to have a friend in you; sad and frowning 'coz I know you're unhappy right now. I know that you have one wish you want to be granted badly and even though I don't know exactly it is, I always hope that you'll get it. I include it in my prayers 'coz this wish, according to you, will give you happiness. And I want you and your mom to be happy - BE REALLY HAPPY.

I love you my bestfriend and as cliche as it sounds, I'm always gonna be around for you, whether you like it or not. I'm not eager to break my promise the second time around.

GOD BLESS!

AJA! :P

BE HAPPY! :)

STAY SEXY! ;0