Bestfriend...

This is an open letter to a particular person that's part of my life... I know you'll know this is for you...

Whenever I think of you these days, I can't help but smile then frown, feel happy but also sad...

We've been friends for almost years now, almost half of our lives and we've been through quite a lot already. But lately, I know that you've been really sad, depressed even, and that made me really worried about you. It also made me think that I'm a lame friend for not being able to help you. And for this, please accept my apology.

I'M SORRY. I really am so sorry for not always being there at your side when you're lonely. I know I have to text and call you more often, and it's saddening that I sometimes only become aware of your sadness or your problems after you've already solved it. I know you're strong-willed and very confident, but at times, I really want to comfort you at the least.

I"M SORRY for breaking a promise to your dad. When your dad passed away, I whispered to him during the wake that I will take care and watch over you and your mom, in my own little way. I even reinstated that promise at his burial, while you're trying hard to fight back your tears and I can only watch from afar. I've visited the cemetery just once after that, and until now, have yet to return. Remember when I told you on one of our phone conversation that I want to visit again? - it's because of this promise. I want to apologize again to your dad, this time not onlythrough prayers, but going back to the place I made my promise, saying that I failed until now, but will not give up on you- I won't give up and I can't give up- on you.

I'M SORRY for the times that I failed miserably to be by your side when you badle needed someone to talk to, or to cry with. There are times, during our phone-ins, that when we talk about our problems and miseries in life, I just want to hold your hand, and even hug you, just to assure that eventually, things will fall into their places and you'll be happy again.

I'M SORRY for being insensitive sometimes, for talking instead of listening, for being stubborn, for being clueless. I don't know why I suddenly decided to write you, but the sudden thought of my incompetence as a friend struck me, and I just have to express it.

I hope that while you're reading this, you'll feel my sincerity and that by the end, you'll accept my apology. I know I'm being melodramatic and writing this letter is quite out of my comfort zone, but please believe in every single word. Going back twelve years, i still can't remember how we suddenly became friends. As you've said, we're like Yin and Yang. Though we have some similarities, w e have a lot more differences. But somehow, we clicked and been able to survive 12 years bullying each other. Ha! Who would have thought that we'll still be stuck with each other for more that a decade? Hehehe.

Now, as I've stated earlier, whenever I think of you these days, I can't help but smile and frown, be happy and sad at the same time. Happy and smiling, knowing that I'm lucky to have a friend in you; sad and frowning 'coz I know you're unhappy right now. I know that you have one wish you want to be granted badly and even though I don't know exactly it is, I always hope that you'll get it. I include it in my prayers 'coz this wish, according to you, will give you happiness. And I want you and your mom to be happy - BE REALLY HAPPY.

I love you my bestfriend and as cliche as it sounds, I'm always gonna be around for you, whether you like it or not. I'm not eager to break my promise the second time around.

GOD BLESS!

AJA! :P

BE HAPPY! :)

STAY SEXY! ;0

ADDICTED

AAARGGHH!!! Just when I’m almost fully recovered from my Asianovela fascination and addiction, here comes “Boys Over Flowers”. I’m so totally, definitely, truly certified addicted to this t.v. series. In less than one week, I’m hooked and in less than 2 days, I’ve watched the full 25-episode series (with more or less 1 hr per episode)! Just in case you’re wondering how I got addicted, let’s have a little flashback…

About 8 weeks ago, I’ve seen several commercials as regards the latest Asianovela Of ABS-CBN- the Korean’s own version of Japan’s HanaYori Dango and Taiwan’s Meteor Garden- “BOYS OVER FLOWERS”. Being an avid fan of Meteor Garden, my curiosity got ahead of me and was really anxious to watch this. I was glad to know that its airing will be on primetime when I’m home already. Then came May 11, and from that day, I was infected again by the F4 fever, I’m damned!

Monday(May 11) – My family and I watched the pilot episode. Then and there on our living room in front of the t.v. set, we knew that watching the show will be part of our daily habit.

Tuesday(May 12) – On the second day, I quickly accepted the fact that I really,REALLY LIKE the show. Still, I was in denial that it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. I’m determined not to succumb again to my Asianovela addiction.

Wednesday(May 13) – I’m SO HOOKED!!!

Thursday(May 14) – It’s confirmed. I’m GOING GAGA if I missed an episode.

Friday (May 15) – Might as well call it fright day because what I fear most (as to the show) came true. I’m getting fidgety and hot tempered when they didn’t air it on its given timeslot. I convinced myself that maybe one of its predecessors took overtime so its timeslot was adjusted. 11 pm came and it’s official- there’s no BOF for the day. To make it worse, the network announced that they’ll put BOF on an earlier timeslot – which means I won’t be able to watch it anymore!!! I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!That’s the final straw. I’LL FIND A WAY to watch it BY HOOK OR BY CROOK!


Saturday until Sunday (May 16-17) - I went out to buy a present for a debut I’ll be attending later in the afternoon. When I passed by at Carriedo- BAM! My problem found a solution = pirated DVD. (Sorry Mr. Edu Manzano, but I HAVE TO HAVE BOYS OVER FLOWER DVD desperately.) In a span of 5 days, being able to watch it has become a NEED and not merely a WANT anymore. So I asked my “suki” for a copy and she told me there were no copies left ‘coz it’s selling like pancakes! I tried to look for another copy and was about to panic when, tada, another stall had a delivery of 5 DVDs of BOF. I was just about to approach when the vendor quickly handed me a copy. In a blink of an eye, the other 4 copies were gone. At that moment, I was slightly dazzled by what happened. Am I that obvious? Here I am just walking in front of their stall and haven’t even started to ask, then came this delivery and the vendor quickly giving me a copy, no questions asked. Me being me, I didn’t get the DVD right away, instead I browsed other asianovelas. A minute later, I picked up the copy and asked the vendor if he’ll recommend BOF and what’s it about. He gave a look that tells me “You don’t know BOF?” and quicky replied that it’s great and is their bestseller. So I bought it, along with “DEVIL BESIDE ME” and went home. I went to the party later and when I got home, there’s one thing left for me to do…WATCH!!! And boy did I watch, from 10 pm – 5:30 am, slept for about 3 hrs, by 9 am I’m glued again to the t.v. up until 6:30 pm , went to the church, then finally at 10 pm – 12:30 am, watched it until the end.


So back to present, here I am, stressed out due to lack of sleep and still can’t get BOYS OVER FLOWERS out of my head. AAARRGHH!!!! Now, I’m blogging about this just to look if it can help ease my anxiety…not working – still addicted – I’m DAMNED.

F4 FEVER IS BACK.

O.M.G.